So, it's been a while since we've had a break, and when I say we I mean the students of AID. We get 3 week breaks alternatively with only get one week breaks, so every six months we actually get to kick back. The week breaks really only allow you to breathe. Anyway. I'm going to be in Midland for like 2 weeks. I will probably be very bored. But it'll be good to be home for a while.

Almost 2 years in... Things look pretty good. I did my first character model. Enjoyed that, though harder than I thought. Got Character Animation next quarter, excited about that. I have to start thinking about graduating and getting a job. Which means an internship, but that's really hard when I have to take 5 classes a quarter.

In other news. I finally got to play Metal Gear Solid 4,
Been on a binge, played the game all day non stop. It's been like 15 hours. so close to beating it. I'm glad to say it didn't let me down. love the MGS series. I'm looking forward to the one on the PSP too. BTW, my awesome friends bought me a PSP for my birthday. it's so awesome. Now I wonder why it took me so long to get one. Lastly, I built me a beast of a computer. Careful, computer nerd talk here "I put in a new motherboard. a nForce 780i sli, which is pretty nice especially for the price. I put in 6GBs of RAM, which I'll probably upgrade to 8GB some time soon. With the mother board came a pretty nice CPU a intel quad core that runs at 2.66GHz at 1066MHz. To accent my field of study, animation, I got a new graphics card, a EVGA GTX 260 overclocked edition, which is SLI compatible, so I'll probably just add those on as I go. I skipped the HD because, ya know, I have one, but I'll probably upgrade that too eventually. It runs fairly well, the games look great, everything at full. Sadly, though it runs too hot when I play games, and after a while it shuts off on me. So, I need one last piece, a new case. I want a cooler master HAF case, which runs for about $150, but has awesome cooling for the price, so we'll see. At least I think that's what the problem is." Really I tried to keep it as cheap as possible without sacrificing quality parts.

who wants to gimme some thing interesting to do?! I'm kinda bored.

And I shall whisper back, No. So, I finally watched the Watchmen, and yeah I really enjoyed it. Rorschach being my favorite character for his conviction and his relentlessness. And even though he was one of the watchmen, he was the only one they didn't know. But why would I make a journal just to comment on a movie. I find myself thinking on the catch phrase of the movie. And I'd have to say... I agree with it.
As I watch people in society, and especially on the internet, I find myself growing cynical. I find myself hating people, and asking the questions. People can be such bastards, and there always seems to be more of them than good people. People that seem to exist solely to make others feel bad or make things harder. So, why does it feel like when you're a good person, that you don't get anything out of it. It just makes ya want to give up a little, ya know. Maybe one of these days God will show me something better, but the world I'm looking at right now is grimy and isn't worth too much. Maybe I just need some time to myself. Maybe it's because I always want something more. Maybe I just need someone to tell me it'll be alright. I don't mean just anyone though, so don't give me a bunch of that. But I definitely don't need a hug or a pat on the shoulder. That won't change anything. I guess what I'm trying to say is, it's getting hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

And don't get me wrong, I loved the movie. It just got me thinking, and over thinking can be bad. I doubt that a common enemy would fix things for very long though. There are still buried hatred. You can ignore it for progress.

I think I have an art block, or a work block because I don't feel like doing anything. I know I have a pile of homework to do, and some personal projects I should do. Not to mention animatic, but I can't get to work. Not that I haven't been trying either, because I've been sitting here most of the day going through a bunch of notecards trying to do storyboards. Maybe I just need a good kick in the head. Maybe something's actually wrong with me. I don't know. Guess I'll go to bed early and try to get an early start tomorrow. But if anyone has any tips to try to get out of this rut, I'll gladly take it.

For the love of God! I'm dying! I hate being sick.